Writer's Block

So, I've had a little bit of writers block lately.

There's been plenty of things I've wanted to write about (Abby's ballet recital, Austin's sudden jump into 9 month clothes, etc.) but every time I pull out the computer, I stop. I've even written whole posts and then deleted them. Part of the problem is that I set out to write not just to update family and friends on the kids, but to use this as an outlet for my various thoughts on life. In doing so, I told myself I wouldn't hold back. But, that's exactly what I felt like I was doing. I felt like posting mundane life updates wouldn't be telling the whole truth.

So here's the truth: I've been suffering from postpartum depression.

I probably should say "a little" postpartum depression, as the issue hasn't been that huge. However, I'm currently on some antidepressants and seeing a therapist to get myself out of this mess. I know I'm not alone here. I've had a ton of support from my family and close friends (both new and old) and have been grateful to listen to other people's tales. Things are actually starting to look up a little bit, and I'm beginning to feel a little more like myself.

While I'm not ready to write about the whole experience and talk about what I've been going through, I will. I just have to get to the other side first. I'm hoping by at least putting this little bit out there, I can begin to write about the other (much more upbeat!) things going on in my life. Writing this blog has become something I really enjoy and I would love to get back to it. (Besides I wouldn't want to keep my 10's of followers in the dark :) )